I am fed up with trying to cater to everyone's wants around here.  Not needs, that I could handle forever, but the wants of everyone around here is what is going to drive me nuts.  Do I look like I run a fucking restaurant in my own house?  Do I look like the maid?  Why the hell do I have to be the one to organize everything around here?  I am not talking about cleaning, others can do that, but organize.  My husband thinks cleaning the garage is just throwing everything up onto shelves and into boxes.  He doesn't care that things are put back into it's proper place.  My roommates leave their crap out there as well.  I know that I am not perfect about putting everything where it goes, but I am the only one it seems that does it at all.  Then I have to worry about what I, or my family eats, because one of my roommates has a serious food allergy.  I can't fault her for that, and I don't, but she also doesn't eat pork, beef, or fish.  She can't handle the texture of it.  My other roommate is the same way.  Since they are like family here, I try to please them.  I try to please my kids, my husband, my roommates, their friends that come over all the fucking time, and anyone else that decides to show up.  I am not the fucking maid, you want clean clothes, then do the fucking laundry!!  You want something other than what I want to cook for dinner, then make it after I make the meal for my family.  You want your dumbass friends to come over?  Then you are the ones to make them leave at a decent hour and not 2am.  I am so tired of everyone else' shit and not a single one of them realize I have my own shit to do!  I have school supplies that need to be bought, clothes for the kids too, and not to mention that I have my own shopping that needs to be done.  Does any of that get done?  No, cause I seem to be the only one to be able to cook anything in this house that is decent.  Not this fast food shit that my husband likes to make.  I am also the only one that wants the windows washed, frig cleaned, and things put where they belong, not just shoved in a fucking box.  I try to give, and give, and give, and all I get in return is their selfishness.  They take, and take, and take, and I for one am tired of it.  They all know how to clean, they should all know, by now, how to organize as well.  Yet I am still the one that does it all!  Fuck 'em then.  Lets see how fucked up this place can really get when I refuse to do anything for any one of them!

When I think of someone who is getting married, I always seem to wonder how long it will last.  Did they think it through?  Are they old enough?  How long have they been together?  Well now it's my turn to get married.

Even though I know that I have not only thought this through long and hard, it still makes me wonder how long it will last.  We have been together for 7.5 years now, and I love him more now than I did when we first met.  He is the only one that I can really see growing old with and being happy with.  I know that he is the one for me.  We both are well past the "honeymoon" phase in our relationship and we have both seen each other at our worst.  He loves my kids as much as I do and he makes a wonderful husband and father.  Now is the time to walk down the proverbial aisle and do the right thing with the man that I would love to have as my husband.

Now, about the wedding.  At the beginning, I wanted a small one with close friends and family, but I have found out that some of the people that I wished (though didn't expect) to come, can.  GREAT!  Some people on the other hand that I could care less whether or not if they come, were hurt when they found out they weren't going to be invited.  Since I am trying to please everyone, they are getting invited as well.  Whatever, it doesn't really matter to me.

So, I am now down to about a week and a few days until the wedding, and I am in a rush to get things done.  Money has been really tight, but what screwed me over was a mother-in-law that can't seem to take 30 minutes out of her day and look at the reception hall that she rented for us.  If she had done that when I asked her to back in May, all would be well right now and I wouldn't have to scramble for everything.  Instead, she got rude.  Sorry that it's our wedding, not hers, and I would of liked to of been able to plan better.  Anyway, once we realized that she was not going to be of any use to us, and she was more of a hindrance that anything else, I took matters into my own hands.  Now we can get the ball rolling!!  I love my soon-to-be uncle-in-law and aunt-in-law!!  They have actually helped me with all of it and has been a wonderful stress reliever to me.

With all the planning and preparations that I still have left to do, it really makes me thankful for the people that are helping me along the way.  I am so glad that I have so many good friends that are coming from all around the united states to be there for us and help us.  They are so awesome and I hope at the reception I am able to thank each and every one of them properly.

Right now though, I have to run, run, run, run to get everything done. 

I just can't do it!!  I can't bring myself to buy any kind of beef products from Walmart.  Why(you may ask)?  It is as simple as this, when I look at the labels I expect to see that it says 100% real beef with no additives.  Instead, when I turned the package over I saw a piece of paper that listed the INGREDIENTS IN THE BEEF!!  I understand that there are additives in some meat like lunch meats, ham, hot dogs, and many others, but I want my steak to be just beef.  It has been said that what they add to it is suppose to not only make it keep that red appearance, but it's also suppose to enhance the flavor of the meat.  I don't care if my meat turns a bit off color due to oxygenation, I don't want some chemical inside of the darn thing!!  It all turns brown when you cook it anyway.

Now, you may say that it's not such a big deal because other meat have stuff added into them as well.  Yes, I have noticed that even chicken has water added to it.  What I can't handle is the fact that what is added is mostly salt.  I feel sorry for people with heart conditions that eat this stuff.  Here is the list of ingredients that they put into their steaks.

1. Beef
2. Beef broth
3. Potassium Lactate
4. Sodium and Potassium Phosphates
5. Salt
6. Natural Flavors
7. Ascorbic Acid

Okay, the beef I understand.  Why add the beef broth?  What is in the broth anyway?  Where is the list of ingredients to that one!!  It's probably more salt anyway.  The potassium lactate is salt of lactate acids.  It's use is to make it have a longer shelf life.  Gross!  Sodium and potassium phosphates are phosphoric acids and its salt.  It is used to enhance the meat flavor.  Here we go again with the salt.  So, let me get this straight, we have beef, beef broth (which probably has salt in it), salt, salt & salt, oh, and more salt!  What the hell are the natural flavors?  I'm sorry, but there is no natural flavors when it comes down to it.  It's all salt to me!!  Oh, and last but not least by any means, we have ascorbic acid.  It's used to keep your meat red even if it's spoiled!!  OH HELL NO!! 
That is just wrong on so many levels!


What kill me on this is that the front of the package it says 100% freshness guaranteed!  If it sat there for months would they still consider it fresh?!!  I have tried to be more mindful of what I put into my body and I know that I still need to do a lot of work in that department, but leave my steak alone!!